Inspired through Distraction

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This week I realized that I wrote nothing down.  

My morning ritual usually includes managing the 2 or 3 light orange post-it notes stuck to my desk, just off center so they are always visible.  They are the next 2 weeks, roughly, of urgent activities.  I review and revise them daily and determine what is important and requires immediate attention.  I have a compulsion to stay organized... mostly because I can remember nothing.

This week around Friday I realized I had not even looked at the post-it notes... checked off completed tasks, added new... nothing.  What struck me is that I was not even aware of it.  So, for roughly 4 days my mind was completely out to lunch. This is the kind of thing that happens to me, and maybe everyone, when my subconscious decides it needs to work on something.  It quietly steals cycles from you causing you to veer off course.  

This summer was very busy, but in a good way.  Many wonderful visits with friends and family, spending time with my kids and their extended family of friends, traveling... then suddenly it all ended with my two oldest heading off to college.  The house became eerily quiet, and our routines became much more sterile.  The wave had, in essence, broken on the cliff.

My initial coping mechanism was to write Impermanence Stays, about learning to let go during transitions. It's amazing how therapeutic art can be.  Still, I did not return and resume brain-as-usual.

This means that my mind is still working on something... exactly what, I'm not sure.  A few days later I wrote Narratives, Imperatives, about the fact that we all are constantly telling our stories, most of time without knowing it.  If you are someone who can sense those stories, it becomes too much to bear.  I think my muse is telling me it wants to say something else.

I think as a creative person, this moment is the most exciting.  Your internal conflict has reached a certain tipping point which fuels your muse into action.  What emerges seems so well designed you are astonished with yourself.  Other artists can be inspired from your work causing a chain reaction that ripples through the community.  I don't know if that will happen for me or not- but knowing the muse is stirring has boosted my awareness and put me in a blissful state of melancholy. :) :)


A great drop of rain
ignited the fire
unbounded the mire
revealed a desire.


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You should give this game a try :happybounce:

It's been helping me get on track with things. There's even a guild on there for writers. I've been talking to some other writers on there.
Gonna use it to start writing more myself.

Of course, a breather never hurts either!